(verse 1)

My legs are shaking from the weight I carry

And I don’t know how long they’ll last

 

My head is throbbing and my brain is full

Like a bomb that’s ready to blow

 

(chorus)

I run

From the secrets that I keep and the lies I tell

 

I walk each day with the weight of my fabricated world

 

And each time I try and get out

I get caught in the web of my own self-deception

 

Cause I’m afraid

 

Afraid of what they think of me

 

Cause i’m afraid

 

To have my falsehoods revealed

 

                                                                                                                                                                                        

So in spite of the pain I will keep it all inside ignore the cracks in my brain

And the shaking of my legs

 

Cause no matter how hard I try

I’m eternally caught in the web of my own self-deception

 

(verse 2)

My chest is concaving

Crushed by the fiction of my past

 

I can’t go a day without my skins pulled back

To think of the lies that that fall to my earth like snow

 

(chorus)

I run

From the secrets that I keep and the lies I tell

 

I walk each day with the weight of my fabricated world

 

And each time I try and get out

I get caught in the web of my own self-deception

 

Cause I’m afraid

 

Afraid of what they think of me

 

Cause i’m afraid

 

To have my falsehoods revealed

 

                                                                                                                                                                                        

So in spite of the pain I will keep it all inside ignore the cracks in my brain

And the shaking of my legs

 

Cause no matter how hard I try

I’m eternally caught in the web of my own self-deception

 

Explanation:

This is a piece that i am very proud of. I put a lot of emotions into it an it was one of the first pieces that I truly opened up and let the world see who I am as a person and as a writer. Some time ago i was writing a journal. The day before that I had been caught in a pretty bad lie. The people who exposed me where two people I consider parents. Through a lot of reflection on my past I figured out that I have a problem with lying. I will lie my way out of any situation, even if it is not necessary. The next day I was very torn up and spent the entire class ignoring what was going on and wrote this long drawn out mess of a page. About three weeks later I was trying to write a song but was having trouble coming up with themes and topics. So I pulled out my journal and flipped to the page. Because it was such a mess I highlighted fragments and words until i had enough. Then i strung them all together into a song. That is how this song was born.